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Sunday, 07 December 2008

  • you stood on the outside and waved.

    i saw my ex while i was greeting at work today. well, first i saw his brother waving, then i saw him walk over and give me a thumbs up. i don't know what that means, but i felt a sense of pride, standing there, fifteen pounds lighter than when he last saw me; as he stood outside of the store and waved at me; as he stood there wearing the same outfit i saw him in months ago. some people change. some people don't. i'm glad that i'm becoming what i promised i would be. nothing can hold me back now, not even him.

    several people mistook me for a mannequin today, i hope that's a good thing.

    120.6

Wednesday, 03 December 2008

  • i'm tired, so TIRED

    if i had the money
    i would leave this place
    go somewhere new
    somewhere no one has ever heard of me
    and do something with myself
    i'd be beautiful to them
    they'd never know

    here..
    here..
    here i'm hunted
    everyone knows
    opinions are formed

    here..
    there is no change here
    there is no hope here
    there are only walls here
    walls
    and walls
    and walls

    i must maintain a minimum weight of 125
    i must weigh 127 at the end of the week
    i am trapped
    i am scared
    i don't want to do this
    i can't be the way they want

Wednesday, 19 November 2008